DEPRESSION,BLUES,DARK IDEAS,,,,PLEASE ASK AND GET HELP,SOON,PLEASE

[The70RT]

My wife thinks I'm going into depression.....time will tell. Hopefully It wont get the best of me. After reading other peoples problems I shouldn't feel so bad. surprisingly for being an up beat person most of the time It doesn't take much to make me down and out. The last few years I have been really struggling with myself and doesn't take much for me to get down in the dumps. When all you do is sit home all day long thinking about crap that take's a toll on you. I have only been off work for a month and to be off 6 more months....smh.

[djcarguy]

    idal time an boredom are the devil insides time too shine,its odd how all are own thoughts an fears or self image can repete an loop an get stuck in our brains,an drag us too some dark places..

    i started taking some talk therapy group yrs ago ,but after few group talks i felt like i had no problem an didnt belong as it seemed others were way worse an needed all the councilors time so i stopped going. an i slide right back to old ways an drinking an hibernating myself away in my house.  i have had lots of breaks months an once 3 yrs out of work,it was so long then no one wanted to hire me. which took me to a new level of dark hell, i feel better an needed work. but every interview was what you been doing last 3 yrs.. finally went with self employed buying an selling cars an parts.. now bout 13 yrs sence i was force out of work at bout 42 ,8 surgurys an permanent restrictions on work abilitys..after long major depression ,my worker comp.lawyer got me to go too doc for meds then to shrink . got listed or labeled unemployable.was 6 yrs of hell from end of 10 yr job till i got ssi.april will bee 13 years out of work .was a final assembly machinic of bout 1/2 millon dollars mobile wood chippers. just pasted 14 yrs divorced from 2nd nice gal ,,she tryed for 9 1/2 yrs, but saw no future with a me .she was a good lady in lots of way but could not relate or even imagine or want too talk bout my childhood an stuff in my brain. she was, oh long time ago get over it or just get past it,,,did not help. so i kept it all inside an slowly shut her out.  

  have had car an motorbike crashes afew near drownding in river an it seems that even GOD does not want me ,, or could bee not ready for me, a better way i look at it.  3 kids an gran girl is what i try to focus on an have pix s with me or near by always to refocus my brain when stressing or going dark.take care guys an gals try to do few good deeds for others thru the year it helps my well being ,maybe even brownyy points with the big guy.back on meds 10 months an multi vitamin,,less sick which help with well being too i think..bee strong an take care fellow traveler on this path of life,we get one shot at on this side of lawn.  its snowing so iam moody but not bad long as it does not stay long,beats rain an fog i tell my self.  latttttttttter DJ

[ACUDANUT]

    ideal time an boredom are the devil insides time too shine,its odd how all are own thoughts an fears or self image can repete an loop an get stuck in our brains,an drag us too some dark places..

     i started taking some talk therapy group yrs ago ,but after few group talks i felt like i had no problem an didnt belong as it seemed others were way worse an needed all the councilors time so i stopped going. an i slide right back to old ways an drinking an hibernating myself away in my house.  i have had lots of breaks months an once 3 yrs out of work,it was so long then no one wanted to hire me. which took me to a new level of dark hell, i feel better an needed work. but every interview was what you been doing last 3 yrs.. finally went with self employed buying an selling cars an parts.. now bout 13 yrs sence i was force out of work at bout 42 ,8 surgurys an permanent restrictions on work abilitys..after long major depression ,my worker comp.lawyer got me to go too doc for meds then to shrink . got listed or labeled unemployable.was 6 yrs of hell from end of 10 yr job till i got ssi.april will bee 13 years out of work .was a final assembly machinic of bout 1/2 dollars wood chippers. just pasted 14 yrs divorced from 2nd nice gal ,,she tryed for 9 1/2 yrs, but saw no future with a me .she was a good lady in lots of way but could not relate or even imagine or want too talk bout my childhood an stuff in my brain. she was oh long time ago get over it or just forget past it,,,did not help. so i kept it all inside an slowly shut her out. 

   have had car an motorbike crashes afew near drownding in river an it seems that even GOD does not want me ,, or could bee not ready for me, a better way i look at it.  3 kids an gran girl is what i try to focus on an have pix s with me or near by always to refocus my brain when stressing or going dark.take guys an gals try to do few good deeds for others thru the year it helps my well being ,maybe even brownyy points with the big guy.back on meds 10 months an multi vitamin,,less sick which help with well being too i think..bee strong an take care fellow traveler on this path of life,we get one shot at on this side of lawn.  its snowing so iam moody but not bad long as it does not stay long,beats rain an fog i tell my self.  latttttttttter DJ

  DJ, are you doing okay. ? It sounds like your drinking hard.

[djcarguy]

  Had 1 rum an green tea,tuesday after noon. home mix alittle gross took me hrs to drink it.


  have done AA 30 yrs ago after drunk motorbike crash. I rarely have booze in my house,because i have a past of self medicating an abuceing  drinking. son moved out 2 weeks ago,he knows my past with drinking troble  but was so mind set on move an his life ,he gave me 3 bottles,vodka,rum,an toqkillya.. i hate tokillya an whiskey the taste is gross,like turpinetine too me.
bout poured it all out,but put it in cabinet??    i keep in mind an meds right by my drinking glass to remind me not to drink more than one in a blue moon while on meds. go 3 to 6 months with out a drink now days ,but it took many yrs.   an have had black outs ,vomiting an many bad times with drinking. one really bad nite with meds an drinking that still scares me when i look back.broke up my own house an3 car windshields an was out driveing with very little memory of it.with knife an gun in car with me. that was 02 out of work divorced again an pills an booze,bad combo.
please take care an learn without going this far guys an gal.  God bless an bee good an very careful.DJ

[472 R/T SE]

My wife thinks I'm going into depression.....time will tell. Hopefully It wont get the best of me. After reading other peoples problems I shouldn't feel so bad. surprisingly for being an up beat person most of the time It doesn't take much to make me down and out. The last few years I have been really struggling with myself and doesn't take much for me to get down in the dumps. When all you do is sit home all day long thinking about crap that take's a toll on you. I have only been off work for a month and to be off 6 more months....smh.

Sorry to hear that Dennis.   

I've noticed your absence. 

I was off work (retired) less than 2 weeks & already hating life set in.  When you perform physical work all your life & never take more than a couple weeks off it's hard on your system, at least for me it was.  I started at a young age working actually private work cause I was too young (yard work for a guy who just bought a 5 acre parcel with home for about a year). 
As soon as I was old enough, slowly worked my way into 35-40 hours a week & school.  Not much for a social life but I had plans.  Probably why I was able to afford a '77 Trans Am in high school, '83 grad.  Everyone thought my parent's bought it.

It doesn't get easier Dennis.  A person needs stuff to do to keep their mind off things.  I should practice what I preach.  But anyhoots, I spend a lot of time on the puter.  Lots of time spent playing fantasy sports where I might add do pretty good. 



If you'd like my # Dennis I can PM you.  I may not have solutions but hear I'm a pretty good listener.      I wish I was closer.  Between 2 gimps we should be able make some progress on your B5 beauty!

[Ram07]

My wife thinks I'm going into depression.....time will tell. Hopefully It wont get the best of me. After reading other peoples problems I shouldn't feel so bad. surprisingly for being an up beat person most of the time It doesn't take much to make me down and out. The last few years I have been really struggling with myself and doesn't take much for me to get down in the dumps. When all you do is sit home all day long thinking about crap that take's a toll on you. I have only been off work for a month and to be off 6 more months....smh.

Well...I can offer a little tid bit on this one...You probably are...time off sucks, when you don't want it.
If you are anything like me, you would be a stubborn kind of guy that figures, time will tell...see what happens...If your wife is noticing things...I would go see someone...I did, back in the day! Sometimes the best advice given is from a non judgmental stranger, you can just go vent too for an hour or so.

Worrying about stuff, never helps, makes you feel worse, and can worry all you want, will not change anything.

Talk to a guy...one that makes you feel comfortable...take it from me...I did that a little too late....wife will eventually get pissed, tell you to do the same kinda thing, and that just adds to more problems...and you don't wanna get to that point....but, that's just me talking...

But...guessing you are bored, hurting, frustrated...and worrying about money...

I may be out of line, but...been there done that...I lost big time...

[The70RT]

My wife thinks I'm going into depression.....time will tell. Hopefully It wont get the best of me. After reading other peoples problems I shouldn't feel so bad. surprisingly for being an up beat person most of the time It doesn't take much to make me down and out. The last few years I have been really struggling with myself and doesn't take much for me to get down in the dumps. When all you do is sit home all day long thinking about crap that take's a toll on you. I have only been off work for a month and to be off 6 more months....smh.

Sorry to hear that Dennis.   

I've noticed your absence. 

I was off work (retired) less than 2 weeks & already hating life set in.  When you perform physical work all your life & never take more than a couple weeks off it's hard on your system, at least for me it was.  I started at a young age working actually private work cause I was too young (yard work for a guy who just bought a 5 acre parcel with home for about a year). 
As soon as I was old enough, slowly worked my way into 35-40 hours a week & school.  Not much for a social life but I had plans.  Probably why I was able to afford a '77 Trans Am in high school, '83 grad.  Everyone thought my parent's bought it.

It doesn't get easier Dennis.  A person needs stuff to do to keep their mind off things.  I should practice what I preach.  But anyhoots, I spend a lot of time on the puter.  Lots of time spent playing fantasy sports where I might add do pretty good. 



If you'd like my # Dennis I can PM you.  I may not have solutions but hear I'm a pretty good listener.      I wish I was closer.  Between 2 gimps we should be able make some progress on your B5 beauty!

Thanks Mike, you can PM me your number so I can maybe stay in touch if I need someone to talk to. I know you have had it worse than me and know how to handle things better. Yeah I wish we were neighbors 

[The70RT]

My wife thinks I'm going into depression.....time will tell. Hopefully It wont get the best of me. After reading other peoples problems I shouldn't feel so bad. surprisingly for being an up beat person most of the time It doesn't take much to make me down and out. The last few years I have been really struggling with myself and doesn't take much for me to get down in the dumps. When all you do is sit home all day long thinking about crap that take's a toll on you. I have only been off work for a month and to be off 6 more months....smh.

Well...I can offer a little tid bit on this one...You probably are...time off sucks, when you don't want it.
If you are anything like me, you would be a stubborn kind of guy that figures, time will tell...see what happens...If your wife is noticing things...I would go see someone...I did, back in the day! Sometimes the best advice given is from a non judgmental stranger, you can just go vent too for an hour or so.

Worrying about stuff, never helps, makes you feel worse, and can worry all you want, will not change anything.

Talk to a guy...one that makes you feel comfortable...take it from me...I did that a little too late....wife will eventually get pissed, tell you to do the same kinda thing, and that just adds to more problems...and you don't wanna get to that point....but, that's just me talking...

But...guessing you are bored, hurting, frustrated...and worrying about money...

I may be out of line, but...been there done that...I lost big time...

Yeah your pretty much right about everything, my wife is my rock and I treat her good and don't really worry about her not putting up with me. We have to go out of state Monday to get her to an Indian hospital in OK since there is none up here. She just got a new job and don't get insurance till her probationary period is up. She has 1/8 Cherokee in her so they pay for her medical but have to make a trek down there every time we need to. She has had something going on and we don't know what it is. I'm glad she is more up beat then I am....she's a tough cookie. They been dragging their feet since her last visit in October when they just gave her some meds but now she is still in alot of pain. Maybe after all this is taken care of I focus on healing and getting out of the house to do some things. I know sitting around worrying is bad but It's hard to turn your focus away from all the bad things.

[djcarguy]

 HAD BIG HOPES FOR A GOOD NEW YEAR.Well had some good weeks an bad  maybee 50 -50 so far.  my son that was living here paying some rent moved late january with his gal an her kid i never met her or kid till day he moved..

    get to say goodbye to younger son today ,, sunday he is off to basic in texas an 4 yr sign up.. did get to spend a day with him this week . he turned 22 in jan an is my youngest of 3. 


   good bye pizza this evening an it will all bee my xx an new hubby an my outlaws of 14 yrs.  plan to stick to soda an not cause a mess on my sons last nite here...  but even after all these yrs part of me wood still like to kick the hell out of the step dad..   i have worked hard for over 14 years not to get put in jail over the lieing bitch or that worthless sack of shoooooooooooooooooooooitt.....


  the sun is shining ,,think i will go for a drive,maybee stop an see few car guy an there is a little show this evening i can leave the pizza thing an go too//??/  WELL iam going to eat an go for a drive..  both sons are to bee at pizza ,few blocks from my house...  trying to stay calm an i em taking my pills..well food is ready,so latter.DJ

[TUFCAT]

Hang in there. 

[JB400]

Have a good time DJ

[djcarguy]

  Pizza  bye went well sat with my older son his gal an met her 3 yr old son cute very active kid. my ma an pa outlaws xxxxx inlaws sat with me an son get alone with them now took few yrs..


      youngest left sunday an is in texas  Air force basis than to miss a sip for schooling then???  he says anywhere but west coast ,been there... were from oregon an in oregon still???


              been slow an quiet week my gut an back are trying to kill me or keep me busy running to the can ,,oh tmi..    well made it thru with maybee 3-4 words too x an dick head,, she has gained more an looks very unhappy,oh.,,,,,tooo bad..   

    Well we been having sun shine  an mild temp,wish i felt better. take care out there.latter DJ

[djcarguy]

DEPRESSION, OR WINTER BLUES AND SAD TIME THAT LAST,,, PLEASE ASK DOC AND FAMILY OR FRIENDS FOR HELP.


  THIS HAS BEEN ON MY MIND ALOT THIS LAST WEEK . IF YOU ARE FEELING DOWN AND SAD,PLEASE REACH OUT.


 I HAVE LOST FAMILY AND FRIENDS AND BEEN THRU THIS FOR YEARS MYSELF 30 SOME. NOW MEDS LAST 16 YRS.

   PLEASE FOR GOD SAKE ,AND IF ANY DARK IDEAS OR MOODS LAST REACH OUT FOR HELP. THE MIND IS THICKY AND WE CAN NOT JUST WILL THINGS BETTER,OR JUST SNAP OUT OF IT.


         SO PLEASE ASK AND GET HELP ,AND THINGS CAN GET BETTER.   I  AM VERY CONCERNED LATLY BOUT THIS AND THE TIMES AND STRESSES PEOPLE ARE DEALING WITH,THESE DAYS... OK TO PM ME IF YOU DONT WANT TO REPLY IN OPEN ,ITS OK.LATTTER DAVID J    WE CAN ALL USE A FRIEND OR HAND SOMETIMES :

[ACUDANUT]

God Bless Robin Williams.  Maybe he could have came to this site for help.

[Ranger Max]

Rough road but still kicking

[ACUDANUT]

I called the suicide hotline and they encouraged me. 

[TUFCAT]

I called the suicide hotline and they encouraged me.  

So why are you still here?

[djcarguy]

  Wishing  an  all my best ta ya all s..   hope ya all have a good turkey day ,food,football an the best day off you can make it.   


        Winter an holidays are here again . Real cloudy an wet out here in west oregon.


       well ya all take care an make it the best day ya can .call a few friends or family and dont eat too much.   beside left over are a good thing to have latttttter..

                           Take care out there an bee good ta ya self ,,,happy holidays to us all.


     

[69DAYTONASE]

Church! There is nothing better to lift your spirits than socializing with faithful people, and Most churches have a support group. Prayer is the best way to keep yourself level. I was surprised to find out how many car people are among my parish members. The pastor of course is always willing to talk with you. God is real. Your life is proof of that. Your life has value and meaning because God created you, this He did out of love for you. He made the creation for you to enjoy. It is thanksgiving weekend so think about all the things you have to be thankful for. Not just this weekend, but everyday. Dwell on the positive things in your life both past and present. Thank God for them in prayer. Ask for Him to give you strength. Helping others is a great way to make friends and lift your spirits while socializing, it quite often puts life in perspective in a positive way as well.

[Dave Kanofsky]

Church! There is nothing better to lift your spirits than socializing with faithful people, and Most churches have a support group. Prayer is the best way to keep yourself level. I was surprised to find out how many car people are among my parish members. The pastor of course is always willing to talk with you. God is real. Your life is proof of that. Your life has value and meaning because God created you, this He did out of love for you. He made the creation for you to enjoy. It is thanksgiving weekend so think about all the things you have to be thankful for. Not just this weekend, but everyday. Dwell on the positive things in your life both past and present. Thank God for them in prayer. Ask for Him to give you strength. Helping others is a great way to make friends and lift your spirits while socializing, it quite often puts life in perspective in a positive way as well.

GREAT ADVICE!

[ACUDANUT]

Church! There is nothing better to lift your spirits than socializing with faithful people, and Most churches have a support group. Prayer is the best way to keep yourself level. I was surprised to find out how many car people are among my parish members. The pastor of course is always willing to talk with you. God is real. Your life is proof of that. Your life has value and meaning because God created you, this He did out of love for you. He made the creation for you to enjoy. It is thanksgiving weekend so think about all the things you have to be thankful for. Not just this weekend, but everyday. Dwell on the positive things in your life both past and present. Thank God for them in prayer. Ask for Him to give you strength. Helping others is a great way to make friends and lift your spirits while socializing, it quite often puts life in perspective in a positive way as well.

Great advise x2.

btw, Thanks Tuff Kitty 

[polywideblock]

Church! There is nothing better to lift your spirits than socializing with faithful people, and Most churches have a support group. Prayer is the best way to keep yourself level. I was surprised to find out how many car people are among my parish members. The pastor of course is always willing to talk with you. God is real. Your life is proof of that. Your life has value and meaning because God created you, this He did out of love for you. He made the creation for you to enjoy. It is thanksgiving weekend so think about all the things you have to be thankful for. Not just this weekend, but everyday. Dwell on the positive things in your life both past and present. Thank God for them in prayer. Ask for Him to give you strength. Helping others is a great way to make friends and lift your spirits while socializing, it quite often puts life in perspective in a positive way as well.

hmmm,  I just don't know about that 

[garner7555]

Church! There is nothing better to lift your spirits than socializing with faithful people, and Most churches have a support group. Prayer is the best way to keep yourself level. I was surprised to find out how many car people are among my parish members. The pastor of course is always willing to talk with you. God is real. Your life is proof of that. Your life has value and meaning because God created you, this He did out of love for you. He made the creation for you to enjoy. It is thanksgiving weekend so think about all the things you have to be thankful for. Not just this weekend, but everyday. Dwell on the positive things in your life both past and present. Thank God for them in prayer. Ask for Him to give you strength. Helping others is a great way to make friends and lift your spirits while socializing, it quite often puts life in perspective in a positive way as well.

I agree 100%   x3     

[Bobs69]

If you enjoyed physical work why not get a gym membership in retirement?   You are out in public, dry warm and around people you can engage or just watch.

Or was it the sunshine that made you feel good?  Go to a tanning bed once in awhile.

[polywideblock]

Church! There is nothing better to lift your spirits than socializing with faithful people, and Most churches have a support group. Prayer is the best way to keep yourself level. I was surprised to find out how many car people are among my parish members. The pastor of course is always willing to talk with you. God is real. Your life is proof of that. Your life has value and meaning because God created you, this He did out of love for you. He made the creation for you to enjoy. It is thanksgiving weekend so think about all the things you have to be thankful for. Not just this weekend, but everyday. Dwell on the positive things in your life both past and present. Thank God for them in prayer. Ask for Him to give you strength. Helping others is a great way to make friends and lift your spirits while socializing, it quite often puts life in perspective in a positive way as well.

hmmm,  I just don't know about that  

thanks for the PM's and emails      but it would be better to let the "other " half know they don't have it all their way    post up

edit: sorry for the hijack